Meow.

I meow a lot. It's kinda stupid, seeing as I'm not a cat, but it's just one of those things I do.

Another thing I do is work at IGA near my house. I'm a cashier. I love it so much! We recently hired new employees, and today at work I think I sufficently made an ass of myself.

But actually, I'm just trying to be nice and welcome the new comers, but I'm just kinda obnoxious. Well maybe. I just love my job so much, Im a super nerd about it...anyway.

I got thirty minutes cut from my five hour shift because it was so slow! Which is bogus, bc there was a mix up in the schedule and I have zero hours this coming week, and I'm going to Texas to visit my family from the 11th through the 19th. So...two weeks without a paycheck? Yupp. So poor. :(

Oh well, once school starts I'll get more hours. Plus when I turn 18 in December I hope to get another job as a waitress somewhere. :)

Anyway. That's all I got for now I guess. <3 Love love. :)

Grrr.

Just recently I have been trying to cut out one of the thingsw in my life that I love more than anything- Music and performing.
I left the band I was lead singer of, I didn;t audition for one of my favorite shows that was being put on by a local arts company, stuff like that.
And now...i'm fully realizing that I absolutely cannot live without being on stage in some way.
I want more than anything to persue this, to live this, to eat sleep and breathe musical theater...but my health makes it impossible for me to live and actor's unstable life...

UGH. I am so sick of having the same stupid thoughts all the time. I'm just tired of having to jump through hoops and then feeling like I should be doing somehting else.

I for sure have to switch medication, I have an appointment with my oncologist this coming Tuesday. Joy of joys. I just hope that I feel better on new medication.

I was just feeling so hopeful and excited for the future, and then this hit me like a frieght train. Ugh.

I'm just going to listen to John Mayer til I fall asleep.